If your thought is a rose,
you are a rose garden;
if it is thorn,
you are fuel for the bath stove.
[RUMI, MTHNAWI, II, 278]
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Egotism is difficult to see when we most need to see it; this is because we are identified with it at the moment that it has its greatest effect on us. The ego has many modalities:
Some of us are performers; all we need is to have the attention of others and we begin to puff up with self-importance. The desire is to prove that we are better than others.
Some of us are martyrs who enjoy the wrongs we imagine others are doing to us because they feed the strangely pleasurable sensation of self-pity.
Some of us are always busy; we constantly pursue our mundane and heartless goals, which we consider more important than sharing time with others. We hide behind our busyness and, fixated on a limited, isolated self, we avoid relationships.
Some of us are cynics, never free of a critical attitude toward others. Perhaps frustrations have left us powerless, and our only defense is this cynicism.
Some of us are murderers, murdering others in our minds, thriving on anger and judgment, never willing to credit good to anyone.
Some of us are angry because others have not fulfilled our expectations. This usually means they have not shown us the degree of importance we feel we deserve.
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Some of us use spirituality to increase self-importance and specialness. We cover egotism with the appearance of humility and selfishness with the appearance of generosity.
…We become free of the self-motive by becoming nothing. And we can become nothing by limiting our habitual self-centered thoughts. This will cut at the roots of our egotism, as ego exists in our thinking. Habitual, unconscious thought may be motivated by desire, fear, or frustration.
… Because we are filled with desire, anger, loneliness, and fear, our conditioned self cannot stop comparing, wanting, defending, resenting, and being afraid.
This state of compulsive living is so painful, and its loneliness is so great, that we do everything we can to escape it through dreams of it being otherwise – through entertainments, through self-gratification, through seeking in spiritual circles the love that we do not feel for ourselves. If we could just be, we would be able to relax from the anxiety of becoming something that we are not, getting something we don’t have, and trying to shape reality according to our own desires.
Too often we do not want to change, but instead want the pain to go away and allow us to remain the same with all our desires and with our image of ourselves intact. We will not be successful running to anything, because we cannot run away from ourselves. And yet what we most need is what we already are: our essential self. There is no escape; there is only coming home.
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